I just came from homeleave.  It wasn't all that great either.  I found out that my birth dad is again seeing my crack addict birth mom.  they are both against me now. I found out much other things also.I hate to go down there.  my head and everything else gets so messed up when i go there.  Its like culture shock when I come back here.  My question is to any one who has beleivable advice is why when i pray toGod to  not let me have to go down there that every time i have to go.  what's the point.  Why wont God intervene and stop it from happening.  My spiritual life gets worse every time.  My depression and anxiety get s worse.  My already confused self gets even more confused of just who I am.  I have to fight so hard not to let any pressure me in to drinking or smoking.  Why won't He tell me why I still have to go down there to that place.  Does He not hear me any more. or is it just me.  I NEED some answers.