I've been struggling lately it seems about everything.  I feel like no matter what i   do it's always wrong and never good enough.  I beat myself up over every little thing.  It had become addicting over time.  just a normal part of life I guess.  I feel like God isn't with me anymore.  Even though I know He is.  I ask Him for help but it never seems like my   prayers are answered.

    Every time I talk to my family some thing else bad happens.  My dad is now dating a girlfriend who is an alcoholic.  and unfortunatly this is a serious thing,  he's already brought her to meet the familyu twice.  My brother is a druggy and is engaged at 17 1/2 to a girl he's cheating on.  My little brother is doing bad in school, as of this year.  My 10 year  old sister started cusing.  My aunt who lives with us scrams at everything that moves and goes into a big rampage.  I get more depressed every time I go home.   I feel bad that I never want to see my family.  I beat myself up over it all the time.

     I'm supposed to be seeing a counselor,  I'm really scared though.  I don't like them.  But Somer's going to be there with me.    Life is hard  I dont quite know how to deal with it yet.